Back to Work....

Welcome back to work everyone!

Hope you guys are feeding off each others positive vibes being back at your work space with your colleagues. I've settled everything for this 2 months alhamdulillah. Except my work space is looking a little bit different these days, as there is an add on in the room and might be I will be taken on another job title, doing something totally different! Not to worry though, these brain aren't going to stop thinking,inshaAllah. 

God willing, this will be what's best for me in this world and the next. :)

God willing, this will be what's best for me in this world and the next. :)

Our Baby A's is A Baby Girl....

I distinctly remember the unimaginable happiness and happy tears that Alyssa, Adam & A'isy was brought into our lives as she came at the most perfect timing. Truly was a gift from Allah, as all newborns are. Alhamdulillah I can only imagine little baby girl Arisarra, bringing the same kind of unimaginable joy, much laughter and happy tears to me and Mr. A.A.A. Our Baby Arissarra completed our family with 2 Girls and 2 Boys...

It's amazing thinking about what a beautiful being Allah swt has created. I mean she's a little too hairy for my liking, hahaa, but there really is no imperfection I can find, from her cute little nose to her teeny tiny toesies. Glory be to Allah!


"That is He, the All-Knower of the unseen and the seen, the All-Mighty, the Most Merciful. Who perfected everything that He created and began the creation of man from clay." (32:6-7)

May Allah bless you in His gift to you, may He protect baby girl Arisarra from the danger and evil in this world and may she grow up to be the coolness of your eyes and let her grow into a beautiful righteous daughter. :)

Baby...Baby....

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri

A few days late but here goes...Eid Mubarak / Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri to all my lovely readers. Taqaballahu minna wa minkum! May Allah accept from you and I the deeds we have done this past month, continue to shower us with his utmost mercy and forgiveness, and keep the light of the Quran close to our hearts. 

This first day of Eid this year was probably one of the quietest I've had. For the 1st time all of my sisters (Makrais) spent it at Au 2a, Taman Sri Keramat, as the previous year me and one of my sister  will went back to our husbands hometown,  and One of my sister spent it overseas, left the youngest was in the city at Au 2a with My Dad and Mum. So here's my dad, my mum, the sisters  and the husbands (BIL) in the house. We were not expecting a quite day because I'm so used to my big loud family and now with a crazy kids (4 A’s ) in the house – Makrais Cucu.. Alhamdulillah we had family and friends show up to the house unexpectedly. Thankfully this year, even though we wasn't expecting many guests, we still stayed up the night before to set up everything nicely (just something I've and my sisters enjoyed doing every year since I was young), and made sure there was cake to be served, just in case. And what do you, our favourite  mum’s cake finished by the end of the day.

Makrais

Makrais 4 A's 

Hoping you guys had a lovely first day with your loved ones. :)

My Affair....My Best Friend...

I cannot imagine having a best friend any other then my husband. He is such a responsible and 

caring man. Even there is “secret” between us but both of us tried to settle the “secret” it in every discussions we had including work matters, problems, or any satisfaction between us. We are always be there for each other. I want to tell you guys more, but I feel like I want to keep my marriage bits a secret because it might seem unrealistic to some. But in all honesty, my husband is constantly in my prayers as I cannot find any other way to repay the love he has shown me. So I ask Allah swt to reward him as only Allah can give him the best.

In my marriage, although I am a wife who accompanies her husband, cooks, clean, takes care the children and the house when he is not around etc, I find it not natural for me to humble myself before my husband. Seriously. I don't do it because of Mr A.A.A, but because God asks me to be humble and to take pride and honour in serving others, starting with those who are closest around me. All praises to God, I know that characters can change. I know that us humans are creatures of habit. Characters are a compilation of the little daily habits that we do. So if I want to change from being a person that is arrogant, I must start to purify my intentions to please God, and start to look for new habits to serve people who I love for the sake of God.

So guess what, after realizing this, I decided firstly, to take up a small habit which is, every time Mr. A.A.A comes home, I can serve him a glass of tea, or water. I believe in starting with something that is simple and consistent. Secondly, now I take time to perfect my preparation of food. Sometimes when Mr. A.A.A comes home from work, I get annoyed if I am alone in the kitchen cooking and to look after our children. I always feel like I want him to help out so I don't feel like I am his maid. Now, I take time to make a silent prayer in my heart while I am busy doing the housewife jobs. For example, "Oh my Lord, please make my food good, please make this food a nourishment for us to eat so we can become better servants to You, God." And then I try my best to make the food taste good and have healthy ingredients. And I really enjoy doing it on my own. I love that I get to take pride in serving my husband as a way to get me closer to God. It's such a nice feeling, Glory be to God. I've never ever had this feeling before. I have a long way to go since I battle with ego all the time, but I feel that God is slowly guiding me. Please make dua (prayers) for me to become a better servant of God since I'm going to need all the help that I can get :-)!

May Allah swt protect our relationship and let each others happy place in this world and the hereafter and may He let our eternal reunion be in Jannatul Firdaus (highest level of Paradise). :)

Likes & Dislikes.....

Being pregnant is such an overwhelming experience for any lady to deal with and like everything there are certain things I have loved about being pregnant and some things that I enjoyed quite so much. I wouldn't say there are things I 'hate' about being pregnant as I know it will all be worth it in the end!!

Things I love

1. Feeling our Baby A's kicking- I first felt baby kicking around 18 weeks, first of all it wasn't really a popping sensation that some people describe, it was more like a reflex feeling, you know the kind of feeling you would get when you hit your knee as a kid to make your leg kick, it just comes out of nowhere. Now at 24 weeks, I don't stop feeling kicks and punches, we have one very active baby, and even Mr. A.A.A got to feel it everyday...

2. Nail growth- I have the tiniest nail beds ever, seriously one stroke of a nail brush covers my whole nail! However since being pregnant my nails have grown incredibly well and are much stronger than they have ever been.

3. Shopping- of course! Any excuse. I love buying nice little treats for myself, I deserve them, right? 

Things I dislike

1. Tiredness- I suffer with any mentionable morning sickness but during the first 12 weeks I was exhausted, I would fall on the bed at 6.15 pm every evening and not be able to physically move, thankfully this didn't last long and so far my second trimester has left my full of beans.

2. Bad Skin- Again this is temporary, during the pregnant my skin suffered terribly 

3. Boob and Back ache- most likely related. All that extra weight is really putting a strain on my back. I have found a heated wheat bag to really help, that and a nice back massage from Mr. A.A.A.

4. Sleeping on my side- I am a front sleeper and sleeping on my side has not been going down to well, the weight of the bump really doesn't help with back ache, I have to switch sides every hour as I wake up and the side I am on is numb. 

5. Lack of clothes-This has become such a chore, I have resisted in buying anything 

maternity apart from a bra, and work trousers. I have just ordered a work dress and trousers so I will let you know how I get on with those.

6. Leg Cramps- these have probably been the worst thing I have suffered, to the point where I wake up at night and can't talk where they are so painful, prompting Mr.A.A.A to jump out of his side run round and stretch my leg out of spasm. I have also had to dump my shopping trolley half way around to go and sit in the car and stretch out my foot. Dioralytes have been my savior, they are usually given to kids after a bout of diarrhea for re-hydration, but if you are suffering like me these are totally worth the foul taste, they really help put all the goodness, salts and water back into your body. If you can't find these a good alternative is an energy drink containing electrolytes - lucozade etc.

Apologize...Forgiveness....

Here It Come Again - Ramadhan...

Ramadhan is approaching fast. I am starting to feel the heat! hehehe... It's so exciting subhanAllah... I can't believe Allah has given me the chance to once again experience this beautiful time of trying to be close to Him. Let's just say that it's time to up the game, so people, let's share the game plan.

Ramadhan is like a 30 days spiritual marathon for me. So, if we've got big plans, let's first pray to Allah that He helps us in this journey. And secondly, let's actually think logically.

If Ramadhan is a 30 days marathon that involves feeding of the soul, then there are two elements that we have to think about. Obviously all marathons requires training. What kind of training is then required? I think this calls for a spiritual training. So let's look at some spiritual training that can help us prepare for Ramadhan.

1. Concentrate on Salah (this is the key to everything);

2. Seek for Allah's forgiveness;

3. Wake up early for Tahajjud;

4. Recite Qur'an in the morning;

5. Prepare stuff to ask on the night of Laylatul Qadr; and

6. Watch out for the nafs i.e. mouth, shopping and tv watching. 

So far, here is what I have but just this list looks like a lot for me. Maybe it's because I am struggling... It's ok, I know that if we try to walk to Allah, Allah will run to us, so let's just concentrate on the effort and let leave the results to Allah :-)

A GIFT....

About elevan years ago, mashaAllah a beautiful and close to picture perfect wedding was held in the Mr M.M and Mrs A.A.B family. It was mine. Duas that Allah would bless the marriage came from left right and centre from all that came and wished us well. My family and all the  family members and family close friends went all out to help. I probably didn't thank them enough, so may Allah reward them tremendously for making that day what it was. Love you guys so much! :)

A lot of things happen for the past Eleven years an teaches me to be more matured in my life. 

The Past:

There is nothing that we can do about the past. Sometimes, even trying to understand the past is painful and hurtful. It is complicated to solve problems of things that we cannot change and when the ship has sailed. Forgive and move on. This is my jihad now. To forgive and move on.

The Future:

It is good to plan, prepare and hope for the best, but... do not expect that it will go as planned. Because, Allah swt always has a better plan! I've always been amazed how Allah swt can bring everything together in a much much much more better way. My plans are just a way for me to stay focus on something, but how they come together, that is always the best surprise of it all.

The Present:

It is called the 'present' for a reason. This 'present'/ gift is what we have. There is nothing more important then now. Now, I can decide to be better. Now, I can decide to make a lot of istighfars (seek forgiveness). Now I can decide to forgive and let it go. Now I can decide to not fight anymore. Now I can decide to pray better. Now I still have a chance to make the best of what is to come. It all comes from this gift, now. So I'm gonna shift the focus from past and future and be as PRESENT as I can to NOW. 

As we all know what SHAITAN gets up to the minute a couple says their I dos or in our country, says tunaaaaiiiiiiiii (I still don't get why they have to say it all weird). Shaitan starts plotting ways to break them up till the end of our life. He's ridiculously annoying isn't he? But if I could send him a whatsapp. I would definitely say, no buddy, you really didn't win this one because in your eyes you like to break a marriage or relationship, but the after math of it is even better, priceless in fact. Now this is where by happy ever after begins because I through everything and I gained a a lot of experience. 

So all I can say from this test that Allah gave me is, alhamdulillah because it brought me so much closer to my Mr A.A.A (strengthen my relationship with our Baby A inside my Bump) and my family. I guess He really does put you through some roller coasters in life, but His promise is true, in that with every hardship comes ease. Sometimes we don't see any good in the so called bad things that happen in our life. But we've got to try our best to snap ourselves out of it, and remind each other that Allah would never for a second give you something if it wasn't good for you.

Week 21....

According to Mr. A.A.A I was looking rather round.

Weight Gain: 50 kilos!!!! I have never seen the scales starting with digit of 5, until now. BUT, my skirt, dress do still fit with the button up (worn under bump) So I’m thinking and hoping that it’s all bump and not rump. I was told that my face looks no fatter than normal, so that’s a good thing, right? Sort off? 

Symptoms: Eased off this week, we were on our Babymoon, so no night-time cramps which I am now putting down to being sat at my desk all day. More distracting walks around the office it is... 

Sretchmarks: None yet! But if the whole ‘genetics’ thing is to be believed it won’t be long (Sad face) Thanks for that Mother.

Movement: Lots and Lots, mostly when I am relaxing. Hubby thought he felt a tiny kick and a Baby A heart beating but he wasn't sure, I think he was expecting his hand to be blown away.

Belly button: Still an inny (think so)

Cravings: Unfortunately not eating anything that can be excused as a craving!

(My belly Button - Under the dress..)

BLUE OR PINK

BLUE OR PINK 

Since finding out we were expecting we decided we weren't going to find out what we were having, but as the date became nearer and nearer we both started to change our minds. Mr. A.A.A had a feeling that we were having a GIRL , actually it was more than a feeling, he was adamant it was a GIRL I had a feeling too, not as strong as his but when I was picking unisex clothes I always had it in my head that they were too girly, never were they too boyish. I left the decision down to him (they need this sometimes J) He was so sure that we were having a GIRL. if we were having a BOY again, hahahaha... he would have a few months to get his head around it.

 

LEFT and RIGHT......

Being Grateful...

It’s so easy to talk about, but harder to walk the walk isn’t it? “Be grateful… Be grateful” I mutter to myself as I struggle to keep my eyes open at 6.30 am. My husband and I have had to share the multiple days of experience on the unexpected childcare....

It is a dream come true for every marriage couple for having a children. Bundle of joy. Maybe your children were planned, maybe they were not. But chances are, even as hard as child-rearing gets, there is magic in every day that you can reach out and touch – the tousled hair in the morning, your toddler smiling and saying,  “Mama!” "Papa!" in the morning, the cuddles at the end of the day, the hilarious things these children say and do. The chubby cheeks, the toothless grins, the feel of a tiny hand in yours… You have small people who depend on you and need you. It reminds me of a quote which goes along the lines of “There is nothing better than being needed” or something like that. 

As for my children? I certainly could be more grateful. I adore them to bits, and I have those moments – you know those? – when they wrap their arms around you and your heart does that smooshy melty thing. They’re simply gorgeous and they make me so proud. But the small stuff, there’s so much of that. And I forget to be grateful. I forget to be thankful that I have one beautiful and two gorgeous healthy children, that I completed my family the way I wanted it to be, that I am needed in this way, that I have the opportunity to teach three very special unique individuals the secrets of a happy and healthy life, that I have them to inspire me to find the answers.

Being a working mother, now that certainly isn’t a walk in the park. But it’s actually filled with blessings.  I’m going to be grateful, every single day. I’m not going to feel guilty if I can’t feel completely grateful for every single moment – this isn’t about that. But each day, I’m going to look for my blessings and embrace them. 

Vacation, Port Dickson

Anyway..it was a 4D 3N events...and it was very well planned...tepuk-tepuk to our makcik, pakcik as the AJKS..we had fun in the water..(hidup STORM!)..., out of the water...food was great..go kart...

Kids in the Family....

Cousins....

Heroes in the Family.... 

 Youngest in The Family....A & A .....

Super Mums in the Family....

I have to agree..I was being transported to a very relaxing and calm vacation...

Value...

"The most significant change in a person's life is a change of attitude. Right attitudes produce right actions."

Life of Being Common....

I love being common.

I love enjoying not only the grand designs in the universe, but also the small and finer details in life, like having a father, mother, sisters and In Law Family. 

I love having a husband that I could curl-up and hug while watching the movies. I love romantic gestures whether it was embarrassing, or whether it was in secret between just the two of us and God. 

I love having a my kids around to cheer up my life. 

I've always thought that I was special, but now I am so glad to embrace commonality. I am so glad it is God that is One, that is Special and Irresistible. 

I cannot explain the joy and contentment that I feel. It is just beyond words. I am just so pleased with His gifts... and I only wish, by His Mercy, He would forgive me of my sins and admit me among those that He is pleased. 

  

We all have our own set of struggles, but to take it head on and brave yourself to give it up for the sake of Allah is a whole different story. That's the start of a really beautiful story I think......that will, by Allah's Mercy, end with us living in our beautiful house in Jannah tul Firdaus together.

May Allah swt protect our little family  inshaAllah, and let us be together in happy place in this world and the hereafter. :)

Happenings....

Hoping everyone is in the best of health and iman. I woke up this morning feeling super duper  refreshed! Alhamdulillah I can't describe what an amazing weekend I had being blessed by Allah. Who's excited for every coming month to come? I am!! For so many reasons; Insha Allah another Baby in our arms and in the family....I can't possibly say enough alhamdulillah's for all the blessings Allah has given me and still is! :)

Child labour is so beautiful!! May Allah swt grant me and all mums about to give birth an easy delivery, a healthy new born child and forgiveness from the All Merciful for every little pain they feel. 

I'm looking out my window now and the weather is looking really good this morning. Don't forget to say Alhamdulillah for the bottomless blessings that the All Merciful has given us. ;)

And lastly, but most importantly before I head out, I want to sincerely thank all of you guys who have been so kind with your words, shown me support and made such beautiful duas for me. A dua is seriously the best gift I could ever ask for from anyone. I ask Allah swt to pretty please reward and grant you guys with even more! 

Passion of Love....

Every woman deserves a man who calls her BABY, KISSES her like he meant it, HOLD her like he never wants to let her go, doesn't CHEAT or LIE, wipes her TEARS when she cries, doesn't make her JEALOUS of other women, instead makes other women jealous of he...

A confession  and stories that has been made by Jarrid Wilson...Jarrid Wilson is a husband, pastor, author, and blogger. The stories begins and it sound disgusting as when a Man Is Dating Someone Even Though He’s Married.

 

“I have a confession to make. I’m dating someone even though I’m married. 

She’s an incredible girl. She’s beautiful, smart, cunning, strong, and has an immensely strong faith in God. I love to take her out to dinner, movies, local shows, and always tell her how beautiful she is. I can’t remember the last time I was mad at her for longer than five minutes, and her smile always seems to brighten up my day no matter the circumstances.

Sometimes she will visit me at work unannounced, make me an incredible lunch, or even surprise me with something she personally baked. I can’t believe how lucky I am to be dating someone even though I am married. I encourage you to try it and see what it can do for your life.

Oh! Did I mention the woman I am dating is my wife? What did you expect?

Just because you’re married, doesn’t mean your dating life should end.

I need to continue to date my wife even after I marry her. Pursuing my wife shouldn’t stop just because we both said, “I do.” Way too many times do I see relationships stop growing because people stop taking the initiative to pursue one another.

Dating is a time where you get to learn about someone in a special and unique way. Why would you want that to ever stop? It shouldn’t. Those butterflies you got on the first date shouldn’t stop just because the years have passed. Wake up each day and pursue your spouse as if you are still on your first few dates. You will see a drastic change for the better in your relationship.

When it comes to any relationship, communication and the action of constant pursuit is key. Nobody wants to be with someone who doesn’t want to pursue them whole-heartedly.

I encourage you to date your spouse, pursue them whole-heartedly, and understand that dating shouldn’t end just because you said, “I do.”

- Jarrid Wilson”

Beginning of Blessings...

I think it's quite obvious how absent I've been from the blog. Year of 2013 was as an expected, an extra crazy year for me with the happiness and sadness in the life and I have to admit I was struggling really bad in juggling the little time I had left when work  and everything was settled down and work was done. Obviously, I failed to put aside time to share the many of things I've learn, my thoughts and a gazillion folders of unedited pictures here. But that's okay, because Allah has given you and I another year to get a lot of things done, with His permission and help of course. 

I'm looking out my window now and the weather is looking really good this evening, yay! So have an awesome day with my family insha Allah. Don't forget to say alhamdulillah for the bottomless blessings that the All Merciful has given us. ;)

And lastly, but most importantly before I head out, I want to sincerely thank all of you guys who have been so kind with your words, shown me support and made such beautiful duas for me. A dua is seriously the best gift I could ever ask for from anyone. I ask Allah swt to pretty please reward and grant you guys with even more!