HALAL & HARAM...LAWFUL & PROHIBITED....

How to begin the story....arghhhh...B awak ada Boy friend yer..What is his name?....For Sure haruslah ada...Do you want to know? His name is Ahmad Al Auzai'y..You nak kenal ke.. but sometimes I've been  ask with this type of question.......Are you married....are you single....What is your name?... this what always happen too me....the best thing is by smiling and answered Yes I'm Married with 3 children....Proud of it....

So whilst I praise and thank Allah for giving me Islam which allows me to seriously take a good look at myself and start taking achievable and attainable steps to work for a better 'real' live in the eternity .

For me i know that Love to HALAL is Lawful, and Love that is prohibited by Allah is HARAM..Lawful love is love between husband and wife and it is HALAL meanwhile the prohibited LOVE is the one that forbidden...This kind of love will bring to the cause of the collapse and disintegration to the family.For a wife to Love another woman's Husband and a Husband Loves another man's wife it has been going on and even been recorded by Allah in the Qur'an Al Karim. (surah Yusuf verses 23-35).

I realise that real terror is that I might just be stuck in Hell fire eternally. Not just any fire. Fire itself is something that I cannot bear even for a split second on this earth. What more if it's a fire specially prepared by Allah for all eternity. Oh my Gosh and before I get to the Hell fire, there is the audit of my accounts. Audit of all the deeds that I've done. Ya Allah, I am really really really scarred now... Please please please do not audit me. If you audit just one of my bad deed, I am gone! I am finished!!! I am done... I am doomed.... 

I would rather recite beautiful and truthful passages from the Qur'an that tells us about Jannah instead.  I know it's going to be hard, but if we really try Allah will make us succeed. Allah wants us to come back to Him, Allah wants to give us better . He just needs to see the effort of us letting go of something for the sake of Allah. Let's give this fantasy up and really work for the real thing.

Ya Allah, please give us the strength to pass this test of yours. I really want me and him to be reunited in Jannah. I can so picture a more beautiful version of ourselves, in our huge and luscious garden full of flowers everywhere, as we continue to live blissfully with our families into our perfect piece of forever... Ameen...