Thankful...Thankful...Alhamdulillah....

I understand we human are curious creature. Gone were the days where people follow blindly. We question as any human would do. Even in Sirah, Ibrahim a.s. also question the creation of life, who,why & so forth. Ibrahim was given answer directly by Allah s.w.t. Hidayah- the greatest gift from Allah is only for His chosen one. We are grateful we are born in Islam unlike some of our brothers & sisters that have to go through series of challenges to their believe. 

Allah never need our praises or reassurance from us. In fact, He stated clearly in Quran surah Ibrahim ayah 8:

"Kalau kamu dan sesiapa sahaja di atas muka bumi ini seluruhnya ingkar, maka hal yang demikian itu tidaklah merugikan Allah, sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Kaya lagi Maha Terpuji.” Surah Ibrahim ayat 8.

The truth;we NEEDED HIM more than anything but we as 'hamba yg lemah'-often thinks too highly of ourselves. Often. *sigh..this is more note to self* When everything we are past,present & future are in His hands. It can come & go in a blink of an eye. Thus detachment of all dependents is the highest surrender to Allah. 

In surah Al-Alaq ayat 1-13-yes the first surah that our beloved Prophet received;

1. Bacalah dengan (menyebut) nama Rabbmu Yang menciptakan, (QS. 96:1)

2. Dia telah menciptakan manusia dengan segumpal darah. (QS. 96:2)

3. Bacalah, dan Rabbmulah Yang Paling Pemurah, (QS. 96:3)

4. Yang mengajar (manusia) dengan perantaraan kalam 1590. (QS. 96:4)

5. Dia mengajarkan kepada manusia apa yang tidak diketahuinya. (QS. 96:5)

6. Ketahuilah! Sesungguhnya manusia benar-benar melampaui batas, (QS. 96:6)

7. karena dia melihat dirinya serba cukup. (QS. 96:7)

8. Sesungguhnya hanya kepada Rabbmulah kembali(mu). (QS. 96:8)

9. Bagaimana pendapatmu tentang orang yang melarang, (QS. 96:9)

10. seorang hamba ketika dia mengerjakan shalat 1591, (QS. 96:10)

11. bagaimana pendapatmu jika orang yang melarang itu berada di atas kebenaran, (QS. 96:11)

12. atau dia menyuruh bertaqwa (kepada Allah) (QS. 96:12)

13. Bagaimana pendapatmu jika orang yang melarang itu mendustakan dan berpaling? (QS. 96:13)

14. Tidakkah dia mengetahui bahwa sesungguhnya Allah melihat segala perbuatannya? (QS. 96:14)

It never occurred to me that I got that pay raise because the Ar-Razzaq (the all Provider) decided to allow that to happen. It was because of his generosity (Al-Khareem) that I got more than what I deserved and therefore had the ability to give charity in the first place. It is due to Allah's mercy and guidance that allowed for all the positive changes. Not because I became a better person. It is because He is Ar-Raheem (The Exceedingly Merciful) and Al-Hadi (The one that Guides).  

It wasn't easy to accept that literally every thing that happened in my life was because Allah made it happen. It is by understanding Allah's names and characteristics that I can see clearly just how glorious He is. Allah doesn't need me to praise and glorify him by his utmost perfect names. I am the one that needs to remind myself that He is Al-Azim (The Magnificent), He is Malik Al-Mulk (The Owner of All), He is Al-Muhyi (The Giver of Life) and that He is Al-Malik(The King/Absolute Ruler). I need to remind myself that I am His slave and just another one of His creations. 

He knew. When He created us, He knew we will question, curious & thinks highly of ourselves when we feel enough.