Romantic Love Last.....

Be Grateful For Your Mistakes

"Instead, somehow thank the weasel you caught cheating, and be grateful to the jerk who hurt you so badly. it's the mongrels and the cheaters who make us realise when we have found "the one". so thank them with all your (broken) heart."

Believe In Soul Mates

"A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we’re pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else 

goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise."

You Can't Just Love The Bit You Love

"Accepting - even adoring someone's faults is the truth about how to make love work. Real love is a decision to honour, respect and be loving towards someone in spite of the fact that they, at times, drive you absolutely crazy."

Loving A Whole Person, Even The Parts That Drive You Nuts

"When your significant other does something idiotic, don't just tolerate it, love them for it. As someone very wise once said, "Sometimes the secret is just to say those three little words, 'You're probably right.' "

The best thing to do.....

Lately, I've been really honest with myself and started to ask Allah for the things that I want in this life and the Hereafter, as opposed to just asking for the things that I want in the Hereafter.

If people are trying to bring you down,

It only means that YOU'RE ABOVE THEM.

"Sekiranya seseorang itu cemburu dengan kita,  jangan 

marahi mereka.. Berterima kasihlah  

kepadanya kerana mereka sebenarnya mengagumi dan 

menyanjungi kita.

Whilst there are so many things that I cannot handle and have handled quite badly, fixing my Solat is a good start. This is a proactive and achievable step towards self improvement. Perhaps Solat is the mother of all self help. I'm hoping that being able to fix our Solat could also mean being able to handle bigger problems about to come. Allah knows best.

So guys, let us together invest in our Solat. It's all about education, education, education. Let's learn as much as we can about Solat (understanding what we're saying and perfecting it). Let's demystify khusu' (concentration) as being something of the unknown. It's about building a connection (through knowledge) in conversing with our Creator, the only One worthy of Love, Worship and Obey. 

Men whom neither trade nor sale (business) diverts them from the Remembrance of Allah (with heart and tongue), nor from performing Solat, nor from giving Zakat. They fear a Day when hearts and eyes will be overturned (out of horror of the torment of the Day of Judgement). 

An-Noor:37

IF....IF....

if only i could catch the stars up in the sky,

i would put all of those stars near you..

so that you won't feel alone and gloomy,

even in your darkest days...

if only i have the power to fly wherever i want,

i would fly into your arms everyday,

so that you won't feel sad because of this distance between us,

and you would feel happy all the time..

if only a relationship were made to be fight-free,

i would sacrifice my pride to have only just that,

so that we won't have to waste our tears,

and our precious time arguing..

if only we were born to have the same minds, 

so that in everything we do, we would think alike,

and there will be no more unnecessary words came out from us,

that could jeopardize this relationship..

if only i thought deeply before i spoke, 

trying not to hurt you with my words,

i would just do that for the rest of my life,

so that you won't have any heartaches..

but when i can catch the stars and put it near you,

how are you going to miss me?

but when i can fly into your arms everyday,

how this relationship is going to be tested?

but when we have the same minds and think alike,

how can we know what is right, and what is wrong?

maybe there are a lot of reasons why all of these are or aren't happening to us,

to test our hearts, minds and souls, 

to make us realize that our love is true,

to make us put a lot of effort into our relationship,

so that we will be together..forever.

Be Patient.....

How many times do we loose our cool with people? Recently, I lost my cool with someone who was very dear to my heart. I am desperate for guidance, I am desperate for Paradise, and I am desperate for Allah swt to forgive my sins. So join me in holding our emotions and be PATIENT and KIND with people. Be SMART in dealing with them. I'm gonna need a lot of help.

Whatever happens, I trust that Allah is the one taking care of my affairs. If I've done my part i.e. put in my best effort, seeking His assistance through patience and prayer, then I should chill and let Allah handle the results. If it means that I will fail and gain losses, so be it. This outcome is possible and I should be prepared if it comes. I should prepare myself to be patient with Allah's decree because it is Him that knows best, and is most Wise and Patient. 

I hate being desperate but I think Allah knows that only desperation can humble me. Allah is so Great, He just knows everything.

"Seek assistance through patience and prayer. For sure it's difficult except for those who are humble."

Al-Baqarah:45

Get Angry....Feeling Down....

I was like, eh?! And it seems that everything that has happened so far are just hitting on my nerves. Firstly, I know this isn't my character and so his. There is something must be up. Secondly, this agitated and moody feeling is something that we have to manage carefully because if not, we might end up making Allah and people around us angry. Let's not let Shaitan(the Devil) get the best of us. Only on the wrong discussion and communication both of us get very angry and upside down...Ya Allah....There is no true love accept the everlasting love is for God.....

“It’s heaven,” they say

When you love someone

And they love you back

And in their show of love

They never slack

They say things like

You’re my baby, my life

I’m yours forever

If you leave, I will die

Yes all this sweet talk

Is flattering I admit

Beggars promising kingdoms

Are typically passionate

But a majestic promise

Needs a majestic maker

And the promise of heaven

Is a majestic offer

Heaven, subhanAllah

Home and wholeness

Mysterious and Unseen

Like love

Fortress of freedom

Unshackled from struggle

Secure and Free

From loss

Contentment eternal

Forever bathed in love

Heaven could be a hut

It’d be more than enough

But Allah in His Majesty

Promises much more

Luxurious abodes

Majestic décor

Walls of gold

Floors of pearls

Magnificence, par excellence

Of all the worlds

Motivation and mockery

Irresistible, so odd

This offered to me?

A servant, so flawed

There are places in heaven

He built with His Hands

SubhanAllah

This world is just sand

So don’t promise forever

Don’t belie the fact

That we’re all beggars of time

Time we owe back

Back to Allah

Yet Al-Wadud He

Considers it a loan

Lend Him what’s His

His Jannah you’ll own

This is love personified

Incapable by you or I

Undeserved yet unmatched

From this world we must detach

Mind and heart cannot resist

Despite its blackness and disease

Ya Allah, forgive me please

I am Yours, I believe

Sad and Worrried....

I find myself in the state of much worry since it's been a month and month that my emotion is not so stable...still keep searching and searching the ways...I'm worried of everything, my life, family (Husband and children), Jobs and etc..etc...everything seem confused and blur...

At times like these, all I can do is turn to Allah for some assurance. I've been telling myself that if I try to work extra hard to increase my Iman, I wouldn't be so sad or upset knowing that Allah is handling everything. After all, I've done the best that I can and the rest is left up to Allah. But I find myself in a state of restless and easily agitated.

So I tried this and it worked! How? Because I felt that by crying, I did not push away the hurt and pain that I feel emotionally.
By crying, I did not have to deny my heart that is aching, but as my lips uttered 'glory be to Allah the Most Magnificent and the Most Praiseworthy' in the prostration state, I felt that even at times of difficulty, praising Allah calms the heart that is aching badly. 


So the pearls of wisdom that I got from this experience is, not to deny my emotions, but to allow myself to feel sad. The only difference is, instead of complaining about how I feel, just cry and busy my lips with praises to none other than Allah swt. Honestly for now, this helps....

Heart is Hurt..

When you think about matters of the heart, you cannot help but to feel helpless. It easily flutters... One minute it is happy and full of sunshine, the next minute it is in so much pain. And my heart is in so much pain when the heart is clinging on to something that it can't let go...

There's a lot of things that I can't let go. As tears of frustration and anger gushed through my cheeks.

 

In one family, we all come in different shapes and sizes. Whilst differences should be a strength that can be most beneficial, we rarely see that because we ourselves are not comfortable or secure enough to be in our own skins.

In the struggle to find God and the purpose of my existence, I found me. I am truly at peace with accepting who I am. There is nothing that I need to do or prove to myself, or to others on who I am and what I am capable of. Being a slave, really sets me free...

I am not capable, it is He that is. I am not strong, it is He that is. I am not knowledgeable, it is He that is. And knowing that I can truly depend on Him makes my life a whole lot easier... It really is...

I am no longer looking to control things anymore. I am but a traveler, begging and seeking the bounties of my Lord, none other than Allah. Life is truly easier if we learn to manage our ego (khibir) and ignorance/heedlessness (ghafla). Knowing that I am ignorant, but Allah is the Most Wise. Knowing that I am so weak and small, and Allah is Most Strong and Mighty. This is, in my opinion a good start to being at peace with oneself.

 

It's time to move on. It's time to let go of It's time to grow up. I can't believe I am 33 and I just realised how immature I am. Alhamdulillah. Although the way I found out was not ideal, but at least I've identified where I went wrong. I need to apologise though... sigh...